Yes, I am literally sitting on hold. But it has slowed my day down and given me time to sit a think... Smooth road, Smooth sailing... Why does life find it funny to throw in a speed bump or wave?
As many of our readers know, I have a love/ hate relationship with my mother. To be honest it's more of a tolerance/ dislike relationship. I don't know why, but she is the one person on this earth that can get under my skin. I have patience stronger than most, until you throw my mother in the mix. She makes my stomach knot up and I get more anxious than I can sometimes deal with... I can't help but wish that the clock would fast forward and my children were 18 so I never had to speak to this woman again. I don't by any means want my children to grow up a moment quicker than they have too, but oh to be blessed finally with never having to see or talk to her again!
I was torn with wanting to invite her to Jack and I's wedding.. On one hand, she is my mom and isn't your mom, if alive, suppose to be there on your wedding day? But on the other hand, I don't want her bad energy and judgmental ways to be a black cloud on our very special day.... I have finally made the decision that I will not be inviting my mother to our wedding. I want to enjoy our true family and friends without anxiety or stress. I feel that having my mother there will only be an attack on me, my love and my self esteem. Some may not agree with my decision, though I know I will be supported and respected for it anyway. So there ya have it... Book closed!
And yes I am still, 45 minutes later, sitting on hold!
Loves,
JGirl
